[07 Sep 2008|08:41pm] so instead of coming down. im going to hawaii. kinda sucks, cause i had it all planned. and i really really wanted to see the person i was staying with. but we both agree i cant pass this up. so i leave the sept. 13th. to let me fall..

[08 Aug 2008|06:26am] so everything is going rather well for myself. i should be coming down mid/late sept. beecause i want to see a rays game and their last block of at home are (the 18th-21st against the twins) im coming down around then. (even though lets face its they are making the post season.) i know those games will sell out before i even know it. anyways back to the point.. im coimg down soon, so if anyone cares (doubt they do) im planing on going to a rays game(maybe two.) going to either busch gardens, or some place in OTOWN. and i dont know about the rest the time. but if any one has any ideas let me know. to let me fall..

[15 Jul 2008|04:13pm] recently i was thinking how borring everything is here in NC. i want to get out of this place so bad. so i thought that want to go traveling. since i have family in england, whom want me to come over... i think maybe we could get some people together, and go over there for a week and a half. or something.. i dont know. .. im sure it sounds fucking way out there. it is. but it will be a fucking amazing time.. is anyone down? to let me fall..

[03 Jun 2008|12:24am] i really want people to come up this summer.... i really really really want a group to come up for warped tour... i dont care who is in the group, i just want people to come up and kick it with me up here.... to let me fall..

[26 May 2008|11:10pm] i am bored as shit with NC. i had friends, and then they randomly faded, now im getting them back again. im going over to see chris in a few weeks. and i have been hanging out with abby more, atleast this week. its nice.. i still want to get back to florida.... bad, but i dont think any wants me back anymore. to let me fall..

[25 Apr 2008|07:11pm] so i have been thinking. i want to come down in june. fuck june. i should come down in luky around warped tour (july 11th.) and kick it back a t home around then then... then. anyone and everyone would be waelcomed to fly home with, we can do warped up here, and do the things there is for the nc.. anyone down. hit it up. to let me fall..

[09 Apr 2008|05:08pm] so ive basically given up hope for the hawaii thing. so since i want out of this state so badly, im now re-starting to save to move back to stpete/ some place around stpete. close enough to get back easyily, yet far enough to escape it totally. im saving to come down in june because im getting more hours at my work soon. plus im basically going to be running it for a week. so i figure a week of working 5a- till like 4-5p will load my wallet, plus making me want to the fuck out for awhile. 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[15 Mar 2008|12:02am] so its almost been the amount of time that it might take to get my MMD, which is through the coastguard. so since its through the government ive been trying to be as patient as possible. and with what the guy at the caost gaurd station said "with all you cruise ship people we are kinda jammed lately." in a very annoyed voice that i was wasting his his time kinda. so ive been trying to give it as much time as possible without getting annoyed like and feeling like i got my hopes up. but its getting close to 8weeks(the guy gave it between 1-8weeks) and im starting feel like giving up. but every time i feel that way something has happened... atleast involving this job. but the long its take the more i feel like saying fuck hawaii, get more hours at work( since we are going to start opening at night soon) i could basically be the night manager if i stay, get more money of course, and in the same amount of time if not sooner move home. so right now im really torn, between giving up on a nearly once in a lifetime thing(if it actually ever happens.) and move home. or put my trust in a sure thing, and move home.. god damn im confused.. 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[26 Feb 2008|03:48pm] so its been like a month since i last updated/ even looked at livejournal. still waiting to get my mmd so i can get the fuck out nc. nothing really intresting in my life at all. work. sleep. and kayse jones is all that is happening in my life. o and nascar, yea, ive been here way to long. 1 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[24 Jan 2008|07:56pm] so im going to do some paper work, and get sworn into the merchant mariners document on the 29th. and thats the last thing i have to do before they call me and say there is an opening, get your ass out here...... its so crazy. to let me fall..

[07 Jan 2008|11:30pm] so i was just talking to sandyV. and for the first time was able to say my plan for the next few years perfectly... and this is how everything went down... seantomahawk: so caitliyn works at outback right...? sandy vaaagina: yes seantomahawk: will you ask her how much cooks/ asssisant cooks get paid? sandy vaaagina: she said you cant just start as a cook you work your way up. and you start at 7. she doesnt recommend outback for a cook seantomahawk: o.. seantomahawk: even with expercience? sandy vaaagina: thats what she said seantomahawk: do you know anyone else who works in a restaruant? sandy vaaagina: um yeah. are you trying to work in a restaurant over there? seantomahawk: over where? sandy vaaagina: nc seantomahawk: i already work in a restaurant.. seantomahawk: im trying to figure out if i could afford to move back to florida.. seantomahawk: and be a cook. sandy vaaagina: what happened with the cruise job seantomahawk: its still going down.. seantomahawk: but im only doing that job to save money... seantomahawk: and then when i have the money saved i want to move back. sandy vaaagina: oh okay seantomahawk: ive told you all this before.. seantomahawk: i told you ive wanted to move back since i left.. sandy vaaagina: oh i know but the cruise thing is like for months so i didnt know why you were asking about jobs already seantomahawk: o seantomahawk: its like 5months.. seantomahawk: and while im doing it, im going to take this online class that i signed up for awhile ago.. and try and get a vet tech degree, and then when im done in hawaii try and get a job at some up scale resturant, or at busch gardens or the aqurium.. seantomahawk: hawaii is just so can make alot of money fast, and save it so i can move back. and start my career, seantomahawk: and life. sandy vaaagina: gotcha sandy vaaagina: where would you live here seantomahawk: id either get an apartment. or if i do the hawaii thing for like 2years, i should be able to get a loan on a house if i got a real job doing one of the things i said.. sandy vaaagina: damn you got it all figured out seantomahawk: i hope so.. seantomahawk: it all sounds good and seems good in my head. so thats my plan. dont know how it will work out, but we shall see. 2 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[14 Dec 2007|02:24pm] so im back home. and very unhappy. last time i was down i felt out of place, and just wanted to be here. this time everything felt great, and i didnt want to leave. and even though i didnt get to see many people, the people i did see made the trip beautiful. 3 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[06 Dec 2007|03:15pm] so i almost got totally fucked. cause NCLA (my new job) decided to set up an appointment for me on monday december9th. but i lucky was able have them change it. and then i have to go back to the doctors when i get back too. so.. (although not shocking) i passed my drug test, ive past my back ground check. so i for sure have the job, now im just waiting to be told when they need me. but before any of that happens, IM FUCKING COMING HOME TOMORROW!!! i have to be at the airport here at like 4, cause my flights at 6. then i get to hang out in the ATL airport from 720-8. then at 930 my ass is in tampa. i cant wait to see as many people as i can. but right now i gotta go pack and shit, so peace.. 1 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[20 Nov 2007|09:15pm] im coming home.... ima be there dec7th- dec 14th. i hope i get to see everyone i miss. to let me fall..

[18 Nov 2007|04:26pm] so i cant wait to get home for 7days. there is so much i want to do. and so many faces i need to see. its going to be so amazing. i cant wait for everyone to see how much ive changed. how much of a better person i have become in time ive spent away. and when i see you, i know every thing will just make sense. (you know who you are) 4 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[18 Nov 2007|01:08am] so as retarded as this might sound. i was just looking at myself in the mirror, and i am not uncomfortable with my body at all.. i mean i feel alittle over weight, but im ok with that. i dont know how this is suppose to be taken. or what this means... but i am 110% comfortable the the body ive been given. even if you might thin that im over weight, or fat, or gross, i dont care. i feel like i am made pefectly. and that everything about me is the way it should be... yea i think i need to lose some weight.. but not cause i think im fat. because i think it would be healthly to lose some bit of wieght. say what you will about this post... i dont care. 1 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[17 Nov 2007|03:33pm] ive picked the dates.. december 7th- december 14th. and it wont come soon enough. to let me fall..

[15 Nov 2007|04:17am] so im coming homing at the end of the month. for a few days, not sure how long yet though. when im there i want to go to disney world and islands of andvegers. yes both. which means i want to get a hotel. have a party. we are going to pick a day when i get there. so let me knowif youd like to partake i my birthday/really really going away celebration. (im calling it that cause i never really had a going away party. 1 took me to the edge to let me fall..

[08 Nov 2007|02:53pm] ive written a few updates lately, but not posted them. i feel like i want to get things out, but then when i see it written out i think its pathetic, and just dont post it. basically right now im just going day to day. no not living day to day, going day to day. because basically all i care about now is getting my ass to florida before i leave for hawaii. all i care about is seeing everyone who actually cares about me(that isnt family) and then leaving nc. im going to be so sad if you arent there when im there. (you know who you are.) to let me fall..

[18 Oct 2007|03:02pm] so as long as i past the back ground check, drug test, and qualify for a MML i get the job. but the guy said seeing has how i was upfront about my record, nothing is pending, and its over a year that im most likely fine. and to get the MML you just need a reasonably clear background and driving record. which i have. its going to take atleast 2months to get everything done. and then i just have to wait for an opening. the pay isnt much more then im making now. but when you figure you wont have nearly as manly expences, plus how much over time youll get its understandable why its not more. i mean its a normal work week of 40hours. but ill be working 7days a week 8+hours a day(usually 10+) thats 70+ hours a week. so 30hours a week at time and a half. the actually amount ill probably get from doing this 1 time is like is more then worth it. plus the experience both on the job and spending five months in hawai'i is the stupidest thing id ever do to pass this. and if i do it atleast three times the 5weeks off between becomes paid vacation. to let me fall..

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